the boarding house has been so silent since yesterday. my roommates as well as the two girls in the other room went back to their hometowns to celebrate Christmas. i'm left alone but not exactly lonely. after all i have read about suicide rate soaring high everytime this season comes and the tendency for people to get depressed, i have learned to put an invisible wall for myself against those. i always cling to my favorite writers such as Jessica Zafra and their writings  so i would forget being depressed and that i should not be required to physically be with my family to be happy.

and so i'm here at midnight still facing this laptop which by the way is so small. my big hands are just starting to get used to it. this wasn't at all my choice. i've always wanted to have one that has a wide screen since i hate it when the things i see on the web are small. not to mention the letters become even smaller. like right now, as i am typing my this, i almost could'nt see the letters. good thing i still have good eyesight. this model was my friend's choice and i came to agree with him after we weighed the advantages and disadvantages of our options. i relied on him for the decision since he's more meticulous than me. i'm the impulsive type and he is my extreme opposite.

i had my rest days, but i spent both just staying inside my room. didn't wanna go out for a lot of reasons. the primary one being that i don't know where to go and what i would do when i get there. but well i did go out earlie just to buy some stuff. the crowd was so thick i wanted so much to get back home immediately. but i'm not that impatient and so i stayed and bought some t-shirts. speaking of those t-shirts. i realized some of them were quite small so i promised myself i should do everything to make them fit. so i need to lose more weight. else i'd only wasted the money i spent on them.